2007-07-01
Let's Get Personal
Let's get personal. I'm a whore. A manwhore.
I go to church, and I did have fun. However, I'm having fun listening to people, giving em hope I really shouldn't.
First of all, they're all mad young like 14, 15, 16 stuff like that. It's been that way for a while but I thought things would settle down when I went off to college my first year. Like my mom said, everyone wants a piece of me. One looks like she's ready to kiss me every time I look into her eyes, and not to mention I kinda had something goin on with her sister since the late winter and I'm kinda trying to stop leading her on. What else? Theres another one who we always used to pretend to be husband and wife to joke around, but now, all she does is play along with that joke. I haven't had a serious, genuine conversation with her for months. And She always gives me that longing look and touches my arm and thigh and stuff and there's no way it can be a joke 100% of the time, it happens too much! And then there are the twins. They're good people, kinda moody, but one of em started her own wifey joke with me and I hear the other one likes me. I only think one of em likes me.
And yet, I sit with all of em in church, playing around joking around, and I wonder if each one knows about the other. I wonder if they all choose to be in denial and just chase me harder like I used to compete with David for Elena. I was falling asleep last night and I looked back over all the conversations I had with em that day. And I looked like a pimp. A ladies man. But I don't wanna be like that. I just wanna love, and be loved, and share my life with someone. And God may have already given me that person. Is patience really too much for me?
digimonsterz at 6:03 p.m.