2008-11-28
Is that truly what a man is?
This whole thing with Taisha is growing ever interesting, to put it nicely. I told her that we shouldn't talk for a while (more specifically 3 weeks) to help her get over me. My rationale was that she was never gonna get over me while she was still seeing the very same thing that attracted her to me. However, I'm not so sure about that plan anymore.
Her sister sent me a text yesterday asking me why she was so depressed. The situation with me was the only idea I had, and she told me the same stuff Taisha did, saying that it wasn't gonna work.
Now this obviously made me pensive, and last night it was on my mind a lot. Then while I was chilling in Chris's room, James came in and we all started talking. It's been great just gleaning wisdom from people, and he made a very strong point that jumped out at me:
A man doesn't make decisions to avoid bad consequences, but to stick to convictions.
I know it's not the most sound reasoning, but it kinda buoyed me in this. It sounds like I'm punishing a girl for liking me, which is horrible, but how much better would it really be to go back on my decision? I was surely not meant to be with her, and I want us to be friends, and I feel that if we can't work this out, we can't talk anymore. It feels desperate to me, and I regret this decision every time I think about it, but I'm barely into the tunnel, I'm hoping and praying that it works out well in the end. Everything happens for a reason right?
digimonsterz at 6:51 p.m.